commitments
i recently broke up with my girlfriend, and its given me clarity on why my past relationships haven't succeeded. i realized that i struggle with commitment because i value my precious time immensely, perhaps more than anything else in this world, and that's probably why i find it difficult to maintain my relationships. there's a part of that wants to cry over it, but deep down, i knew from the beginning it wasn't going to work out. suddenly jumping into relationships have proven to be a recurring mistake for me. maybe if i were with someone who didn't have high expectations of me, then things could work out? but honestly im tired of getting hurt repeatedly, just because i care deeply about my significant other. i can't really waste my time on relationships when i know that im still striving to excel in things im passionate about. we're all like shooting stars, burning brightly across the sky until we inevitably fade away. i wrote this while listening to : ab